Alright so I will have to admit ever since I moved out of my parents house I have wanted a puppy but due to living in rentals I could never have one. Well three years ago or longer we bought this house that we lovingly call home (yes even when something breaks down and I am wishing I still rented cause then some other ass hole would have to come fix it instead of me). Well so far every time I have asked for a puppy some how a kitten has ended up in my arms. I finally said enough is enough with that & am looking for a puppy.
Went to an Omaha pet store Sunday & fell in love with a couple of them but with them ranging from 400-1000 I said no way! So I turned to craigslist now and have been looking when my hubby pops off with a deal for me. It pertains to us being debt free. Now granted I would love nothing more to be debt free but that will at least take 5 years at the least with the way things are going. There is no way I will wait that long but we will see who wins this one lol!
On a good note Kaylee has taken an interest in helping me keep the house up. Today I got some photos of her helping with dishes. It was so comical! I love that she is helping with the dishes and such.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Second Job
Ok so for those of you who know me know I run a daycare during the week. Considering I have been getting screwed over by a lot of people other then the one family I have now I decided to go out and get a second job during the weekend to help make more money to get us out of debt faster. Out of all the things I could choose from I decided to go with hotel housekeeping. Well we are going on only my 4th day due to only working sundays the last two weeks and man my knees hurt and I want nothing more than to be able to sleep in one morning or call in one day so that I can have my family time back!
After work today I found myself having to set the cruise control considering I kept trying to speed to get home faster to my family. I truly have to admit this has made me relize how much I love all of them. It would be nicer to make more money considering I am gone from my kids from about 8 in the morning till two sometimes five in the evening. I do find myself getting faster at the job every day just so I can get out of their with most of the day left to enjoy with them. We will see Friday if it is worth the money to spend all this time away from them cause I will official get my first paycheck. I am trying not to get my hopes up about the amount cause I know Uncle Sam will have to take his share but it is hard not to make plans for that money ahead of time cause this way I know it is garanteed that I am getting payed. Which reminds me I need to call a family up and see if they have any plans on paying me like they said they would. Grrr even with contracts people still screw you over.
After work today I found myself having to set the cruise control considering I kept trying to speed to get home faster to my family. I truly have to admit this has made me relize how much I love all of them. It would be nicer to make more money considering I am gone from my kids from about 8 in the morning till two sometimes five in the evening. I do find myself getting faster at the job every day just so I can get out of their with most of the day left to enjoy with them. We will see Friday if it is worth the money to spend all this time away from them cause I will official get my first paycheck. I am trying not to get my hopes up about the amount cause I know Uncle Sam will have to take his share but it is hard not to make plans for that money ahead of time cause this way I know it is garanteed that I am getting payed. Which reminds me I need to call a family up and see if they have any plans on paying me like they said they would. Grrr even with contracts people still screw you over.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Journal
Alright so I have to admit the more I come back the more this is turning into my journal. Imagine that I am allowing my readers a glimpse into what I would actually wright if I had a journal. Man would the unlucky person who found that get board fast. That and my spelling and grammar were never the best so I imagine you can keep yourself busy with the corrections in any give tale of my life. Trust me I could really give a shit less what you think of me because of my lack of these skills. Truthfully that is one of my biggest problems, I really don't give a shit what everyone thinks of me. Trust me I use to! I at one point made myself anorexic due to the fact that I thought people thought I was fat. (Trust me as you can tell I got over that one fast when I was preggers with my first LOL) I mean I dressed the way people wanted me to, looked the way I thought people guys wanted me too, ONLY to find out they loved me the way I was. When I finally got to the point in high school where I said fuck the world due to things happening I found out I enjoyed myself and cherished my friends even more.
Now yes this story has a point trust me. It is coming from some built up anger I have had about some peoples opinions of me and how I raise my kids. I am not perfect by an means when it comes to my house or raising my children. I do not belong to any sort of club about my fashion since or lack there of. I let my oldest wear hair pieces and fake nails. Come on now people it is just for fun. I always explain to her that it is just for that point. I am always telling her she is beautiful the way she is. I also don't believe in giving into a hissy fit just so they will stop and quite making a scene. By all means if they feel like flopping around like a fish or screaming at the top of their lungs they will find mommy continuing on. I make sure they are safe but I refuse to give in because of that.
How about the fact that if you come into my house you will find toys strewed every where and sometimes a big pile of clothes on the couch. I can almost guarantee that at one point in time those piles of clothes and toys have been used in one of our imaginary trips around the world. Yes I do spend time cleaning up most of the time but my days are focused on the children. People hire me to baby sit their kids not because my house is spotless but because the children learn valuable lessons like imagination and communication. I don't know how many parents have commended me on that fact that their child is talking better and sharing more then when they first began. SO GET OVER IT! That is my new lesson of the day, learn to ignore the things that are not perfect and enjoy the time you have with the ones you love. They are not this young forever.
Now yes this story has a point trust me. It is coming from some built up anger I have had about some peoples opinions of me and how I raise my kids. I am not perfect by an means when it comes to my house or raising my children. I do not belong to any sort of club about my fashion since or lack there of. I let my oldest wear hair pieces and fake nails. Come on now people it is just for fun. I always explain to her that it is just for that point. I am always telling her she is beautiful the way she is. I also don't believe in giving into a hissy fit just so they will stop and quite making a scene. By all means if they feel like flopping around like a fish or screaming at the top of their lungs they will find mommy continuing on. I make sure they are safe but I refuse to give in because of that.
How about the fact that if you come into my house you will find toys strewed every where and sometimes a big pile of clothes on the couch. I can almost guarantee that at one point in time those piles of clothes and toys have been used in one of our imaginary trips around the world. Yes I do spend time cleaning up most of the time but my days are focused on the children. People hire me to baby sit their kids not because my house is spotless but because the children learn valuable lessons like imagination and communication. I don't know how many parents have commended me on that fact that their child is talking better and sharing more then when they first began. SO GET OVER IT! That is my new lesson of the day, learn to ignore the things that are not perfect and enjoy the time you have with the ones you love. They are not this young forever.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Long time no chat!
It has been a long time since I updated you all on our little family of 5 and finally have time to chat it up! Since the last post M&M has sure learned the terrible part of being 2. I try to hold my patience with her but man does she try it. It does not help that she was naturally stubborn to began with does it. She is talking much better and it is getting easier to understand what she wants so that helps a lot of the time.
Lucas and Kaylee both ended spring soccer and started up blast ball ( Lucas) and T-ball. Lucas loves it to death and looks forward to it. I still can not believe how much he has grown and how much pre-school helped with his speech. Weighing the three of them tonight I relized he is the same weight as his older sister. Not don't get me wrong he is not a big boy. Its his sister is such a small girl LOL. He is still set on being a 4th generation fireman. The halloween costume I made him is still getting a lot of use. He loves running through the house at any given moment yelling Waverly fire call Waverly fire call 1019 dover st. and then mummbling like the pager and he throws his gear on including a real heavy fireman's helmet and then sirens ( which in times I will have to admit he has fooled me with them being so realistic). You really have to watch your feet at our house cause it is a fire station with all of the gear and toy trucks.
Now Miss Kaylee as I love to call her cause of the teenage attitude she has failed to get rid of, just got done with her big dance recital. Holy crap can these AHDP girls dance. The way that this is put on you would swear it was broodway. ( hoping I spelled that right but who really cares). I will defanitly have to add the pics when I get them from my dad later on. She was in two dances this year the first one is her regular class which was a song called orange color sky. They did a jazz # to it and had a bright orange color dress which Jon and I tease reminds us of a vegas show girl with a boa to boot. That I will have to say was vary entertaining. The second one was the opener of the show which K tried out for and made it. Watching her do that one made me teary eyed every time I watched it. Seeing her with the older girls was absolutly amazing along with the fact that she got to dance with her best buddy in the whole world. It was more of a lyrical ( which for those of you who don't know is easy or slow flowing dance) and she has a tan flowing dress which had slits up the side and three ring thing covered in diamonds. It is much more beautiful then I make it sound LOL.
As far as hubby and I we strugle with his pay cut but are still trying to make it. Our fighting has gotten much better and we are trying to use our anger to get things done instead of attacking each other. Seems to be working pretty well so far. We are also trying to get the love dare book started but so far have not gotten past the first dare cause we either start to bicker and I won't let us move on or simply forget to read the next one before we go to bed because we are enjoying eachothers company.
Hubby did get a job offer but the details to it our still fuzzy. All they did was come up to him twice and ask if he was interested in a lower management position in Iowa. They have not given him an exact location or any other info so we are kind of nervous out getting it. As many of you know we live in a small town now which is the one he grew up in. Now the part I am about to tell you a lot of girls would shiver and shake at but in my opinion is one thing I love the most is the fact that we only live three blocks from his mother, two from his older brother, and less then one from his maturnal grandparents. So one thing I have gotten use to is them coming and going and when ever I have needed help for any reason someone has been right there. One night when Jon was out of town I tought I heard voices coming from outside. I called his brother crying as I was standing in the hall way with a baseball bat and knife telling him what was going on. He dropped everything he was doing and rushed right over to check it out. I lost count of how many times my beater has died and I have had to borrow one of their vehicles or had them take us to our destination. Or how about when Jon was working over nights and K would have dance or something would come up and they were always there to baby sit.
The thought of moving away from them frightens me to death. They have just as much become my parents as they are his. Any questions I have Connie is the first person I call to ask what to do on. We argue like mother an daughter more then in laws. We are also never afraid to tell eachother when we are in the wrong. Crap this woman has tought me more of how to act like a lady then my own ever did. She has corrected my speech ( which no was not always my favorite but man am I greatful for it). The thought of being even an hour away from them makes my tummy turn in circles but at the same time I have to wonder if the time to just depend on eachother would not be good for Jon and I. From the time we have been married we have always had someone to turn to to rescue us from our mistakes. The thought of having to do it on our own makes me linger for it.
Well anyways this has turned out to be a monster of a post. It really does make up for all of the missed time but if I continue I will soon lose you if I have not already. I will more than likley keep you posted on the job offer and more thoughts on it. Happy trails everyone!
Lucas and Kaylee both ended spring soccer and started up blast ball ( Lucas) and T-ball. Lucas loves it to death and looks forward to it. I still can not believe how much he has grown and how much pre-school helped with his speech. Weighing the three of them tonight I relized he is the same weight as his older sister. Not don't get me wrong he is not a big boy. Its his sister is such a small girl LOL. He is still set on being a 4th generation fireman. The halloween costume I made him is still getting a lot of use. He loves running through the house at any given moment yelling Waverly fire call Waverly fire call 1019 dover st. and then mummbling like the pager and he throws his gear on including a real heavy fireman's helmet and then sirens ( which in times I will have to admit he has fooled me with them being so realistic). You really have to watch your feet at our house cause it is a fire station with all of the gear and toy trucks.
Now Miss Kaylee as I love to call her cause of the teenage attitude she has failed to get rid of, just got done with her big dance recital. Holy crap can these AHDP girls dance. The way that this is put on you would swear it was broodway. ( hoping I spelled that right but who really cares). I will defanitly have to add the pics when I get them from my dad later on. She was in two dances this year the first one is her regular class which was a song called orange color sky. They did a jazz # to it and had a bright orange color dress which Jon and I tease reminds us of a vegas show girl with a boa to boot. That I will have to say was vary entertaining. The second one was the opener of the show which K tried out for and made it. Watching her do that one made me teary eyed every time I watched it. Seeing her with the older girls was absolutly amazing along with the fact that she got to dance with her best buddy in the whole world. It was more of a lyrical ( which for those of you who don't know is easy or slow flowing dance) and she has a tan flowing dress which had slits up the side and three ring thing covered in diamonds. It is much more beautiful then I make it sound LOL.
As far as hubby and I we strugle with his pay cut but are still trying to make it. Our fighting has gotten much better and we are trying to use our anger to get things done instead of attacking each other. Seems to be working pretty well so far. We are also trying to get the love dare book started but so far have not gotten past the first dare cause we either start to bicker and I won't let us move on or simply forget to read the next one before we go to bed because we are enjoying eachothers company.
Hubby did get a job offer but the details to it our still fuzzy. All they did was come up to him twice and ask if he was interested in a lower management position in Iowa. They have not given him an exact location or any other info so we are kind of nervous out getting it. As many of you know we live in a small town now which is the one he grew up in. Now the part I am about to tell you a lot of girls would shiver and shake at but in my opinion is one thing I love the most is the fact that we only live three blocks from his mother, two from his older brother, and less then one from his maturnal grandparents. So one thing I have gotten use to is them coming and going and when ever I have needed help for any reason someone has been right there. One night when Jon was out of town I tought I heard voices coming from outside. I called his brother crying as I was standing in the hall way with a baseball bat and knife telling him what was going on. He dropped everything he was doing and rushed right over to check it out. I lost count of how many times my beater has died and I have had to borrow one of their vehicles or had them take us to our destination. Or how about when Jon was working over nights and K would have dance or something would come up and they were always there to baby sit.
The thought of moving away from them frightens me to death. They have just as much become my parents as they are his. Any questions I have Connie is the first person I call to ask what to do on. We argue like mother an daughter more then in laws. We are also never afraid to tell eachother when we are in the wrong. Crap this woman has tought me more of how to act like a lady then my own ever did. She has corrected my speech ( which no was not always my favorite but man am I greatful for it). The thought of being even an hour away from them makes my tummy turn in circles but at the same time I have to wonder if the time to just depend on eachother would not be good for Jon and I. From the time we have been married we have always had someone to turn to to rescue us from our mistakes. The thought of having to do it on our own makes me linger for it.
Well anyways this has turned out to be a monster of a post. It really does make up for all of the missed time but if I continue I will soon lose you if I have not already. I will more than likley keep you posted on the job offer and more thoughts on it. Happy trails everyone!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Mother's day!
So as I am setting here waiting for my youngest to go to sleep I decided to update you all a little on my life as of right now. I has defiantly been a busy week! My youngest Megan and my hubby Jon celebrated a birthday on May 8th. It is hard to believe she is 2 already. Boy does time fly! I did get some cleaning done but spent most of the day cuddling with her and just enjoying my life.
I am no longer speaking to my mother for personal reasons and that bothered me today. It is a good thing for my family and I but it hurt not being able to say happy mothers day to her. I did how ever get to wake up to the best day ever in my opinion. It started out with just laying in bed till the kids woke up and then Kaylee brought me in a present she made at school. A hand crochet hot pad, a book about why I am special, and then a flower with her pic in the center and on the brown pot it said two reasons why I was the best mom. Man that was great, granted I am well known for polishing nails but man it is great to see I am appreciated for something around here LOL! I then got to go teach Sunday School which was easy cause we painted flower pots for their mother and I then let them pick out two flowers to put into the pot.
When I went to pick up my son he handed me a boutainer made out of fake flowers and a hand made card. I will admit I was so proud that I wore that boutainer all day. Right after Sunday School we headed home to pack up some diaper bags and took off to lunch and then the Omaha Zoo with my family, brother in law and then parent in laws. After several hours of being there and still not getting to see everything in one day we decided to head home. Along the way hubby stopped at Best Busy and let me get the work out videos I have been wanting since I first laid eyes on them. I really want to lose the last of this baby weight but don't want to just lift weights and all that boring stuff so I got the Camen Electra's dvd's! After we got back we picked up the cakes and headed over to the in laws and celebrated Jon and Megan's birthdays.
All in all it was a great day! I will truley remember this day for the rest of my life! I hope that you all enjoyed this day as much as my family and I did!
I am no longer speaking to my mother for personal reasons and that bothered me today. It is a good thing for my family and I but it hurt not being able to say happy mothers day to her. I did how ever get to wake up to the best day ever in my opinion. It started out with just laying in bed till the kids woke up and then Kaylee brought me in a present she made at school. A hand crochet hot pad, a book about why I am special, and then a flower with her pic in the center and on the brown pot it said two reasons why I was the best mom. Man that was great, granted I am well known for polishing nails but man it is great to see I am appreciated for something around here LOL! I then got to go teach Sunday School which was easy cause we painted flower pots for their mother and I then let them pick out two flowers to put into the pot.
When I went to pick up my son he handed me a boutainer made out of fake flowers and a hand made card. I will admit I was so proud that I wore that boutainer all day. Right after Sunday School we headed home to pack up some diaper bags and took off to lunch and then the Omaha Zoo with my family, brother in law and then parent in laws. After several hours of being there and still not getting to see everything in one day we decided to head home. Along the way hubby stopped at Best Busy and let me get the work out videos I have been wanting since I first laid eyes on them. I really want to lose the last of this baby weight but don't want to just lift weights and all that boring stuff so I got the Camen Electra's dvd's! After we got back we picked up the cakes and headed over to the in laws and celebrated Jon and Megan's birthdays.
All in all it was a great day! I will truley remember this day for the rest of my life! I hope that you all enjoyed this day as much as my family and I did!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
encripted comments!
For those of you who have been wondering about my statuses on Facebook and Myspace I choose to inform you all here. In an earlier blog I told you about my mother. It depresses me to see her going through that. Such a strong woman beaten by such illnesses makes me wonder if my troubles are any where near what she is thinking in her brain ( if she even is). I have come to find out today that after three weeks of being in the hospital that her heart is not getting any better. She now was diagnosed with a heart problem that could possible cause blood clots which could lead to a stroke. So that means she will not be able to return to her home but instead she will be going to a nursing home unless things change dramatically.
I have gotten to the point that I choose to go up to see her at night when I will not have to bring my children cause they do not need to see their grandmother like this. Also I find myself realizing that another reason is cause no one will be up there as far as family. A family that was already torn apart for many reasons is being ripped further away cause we all want different views for her continuing care and can not seem to put our differences behind us.
I find it more disturbing that I am pushing the few people that truly love me away. I am back on my destructive path but today I am going to fight to put a stop to it. Many of you that knew me back in high school know of this path. I was mean and cruel to many and at the time did not know true friendship. I didn't care about myself or others! Let me say now that I am truly sorry for the things I did back then and pray everyday for your forgiveness. Not out of pity for what I am going through but because I have learned what it means to love. This wonderful husband of mine and dear children have tough me a valuable lesson in life. I guess that is why I am fighting my ill mannered ways of the past. I tryed to push my husband away and thankfully realized what I was doing before it was too late. I guess the one good thing is that I would never think of doing this with my children. Even with everything that I am feeling they are the few things that can still put a smile on my face.
It will be quite a battle for my mother. One I am praying she has the strength for. It will also be a battle for myself to try and fight pushing everyone away. Even now all I want to do it delete all of my accounts and lock myself in my house. Especially as I read more about the illnesses that our threatening our country. I simply have to remember that GOD will not hand me any more than I can carry. He will lift me up onto his shoulders during the really tough times and in the end I will learn a lesson that he is trying to teach me.
I have gotten to the point that I choose to go up to see her at night when I will not have to bring my children cause they do not need to see their grandmother like this. Also I find myself realizing that another reason is cause no one will be up there as far as family. A family that was already torn apart for many reasons is being ripped further away cause we all want different views for her continuing care and can not seem to put our differences behind us.
I find it more disturbing that I am pushing the few people that truly love me away. I am back on my destructive path but today I am going to fight to put a stop to it. Many of you that knew me back in high school know of this path. I was mean and cruel to many and at the time did not know true friendship. I didn't care about myself or others! Let me say now that I am truly sorry for the things I did back then and pray everyday for your forgiveness. Not out of pity for what I am going through but because I have learned what it means to love. This wonderful husband of mine and dear children have tough me a valuable lesson in life. I guess that is why I am fighting my ill mannered ways of the past. I tryed to push my husband away and thankfully realized what I was doing before it was too late. I guess the one good thing is that I would never think of doing this with my children. Even with everything that I am feeling they are the few things that can still put a smile on my face.
It will be quite a battle for my mother. One I am praying she has the strength for. It will also be a battle for myself to try and fight pushing everyone away. Even now all I want to do it delete all of my accounts and lock myself in my house. Especially as I read more about the illnesses that our threatening our country. I simply have to remember that GOD will not hand me any more than I can carry. He will lift me up onto his shoulders during the really tough times and in the end I will learn a lesson that he is trying to teach me.
Monday, April 27, 2009
10 Short term goals ( ones that will be accomplished before the end of this year)
Alright so I have been thinking of doing this for a long time but for some reason I just want to get it done and over with! I am going to make a list of all the things I want to do.
1. find a second job/ started applying today so hopefully with in the next week I will have this done.
2. quite some bad habits of mine
3.lose 30 of the 60 pounds total I want to lose/ duh start working out tomorrow
4. Save up 3-6 months of income and then save up money to go to Casper, Wy. Someone who has become one of my best friends here and I would really love to see her!
5. pay off 1/3 of my debt and make a plan on how to stay up to date on my monthly bills/ get second job and set down thursday and figure out the budget using Dave Ramsey's plan of action.
6. learn to deal with my stress instead of blowing up/ got some info on this from my health insurance so tonight I am going to put it into my CD player and try it out
7. learn how to be independent/ this one will be hard for me cause I have always had someone.
8. learn how to balance life with children./ need I say more about this one. Either I have a dirty house and happy kids or clean house and sad kids.
9. start doing things for myself./ like making sure my hair and make up is done every day and do manicure and pedicure every weekend. Just little things that will help me feel better about myself.
10. get a better vehicle./ this will have to be done with saving up money cause I will not take out another loan for it.
2. quite some bad habits of mine
3.lose 30 of the 60 pounds total I want to lose/ duh start working out tomorrow
4. Save up 3-6 months of income and then save up money to go to Casper, Wy. Someone who has become one of my best friends here and I would really love to see her!
5. pay off 1/3 of my debt and make a plan on how to stay up to date on my monthly bills/ get second job and set down thursday and figure out the budget using Dave Ramsey's plan of action.
6. learn to deal with my stress instead of blowing up/ got some info on this from my health insurance so tonight I am going to put it into my CD player and try it out
7. learn how to be independent/ this one will be hard for me cause I have always had someone.
8. learn how to balance life with children./ need I say more about this one. Either I have a dirty house and happy kids or clean house and sad kids.
9. start doing things for myself./ like making sure my hair and make up is done every day and do manicure and pedicure every weekend. Just little things that will help me feel better about myself.
10. get a better vehicle./ this will have to be done with saving up money cause I will not take out another loan for it.
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